I overthink things. Just the act of starting this blog has taken way too long. I had the idea to start a blog about drawing because drawing is a way for me to regain control of my unruly right hand and arm. Good enough there. Then I started thinking about what to call the blog. Fun things to draw was available and that was good enough for me. I went ahead and purchased the domain name. So far, so good. I even motivated to get the site up and running. Good again. Then I started thinking. Things shut down at that point.
I’m not good enough to have a blog about art or drawing.
That is exactly what my mind was pretty much convinced of. It tries to tell me every time I pick up a pencil or some other tool for making marks on paper that I’m not any good at this stuff. If you feel compelled to leave a comment saying that my drawings stink, realize that I’ve probably already told myself that at least a few times. When I compare what I’ve drawn to what some people can do, I still feel pretty much incompetent. Still…
I have gone through some changes. Maybe it’s true that my art work isn’t anything special, but one of the gifts I’ve received from having a stroke is that I just don’t care if that’s true or not. I like to draw. That’s good enough for me. It makes me feel good. Sometimes when I’m drawing, I get into that zone where time disappears and everything else fades into the background. I don’t worry about anything. (I think that is the right brain kicking in.)
My hope is that this site might help someone else to feel free to express themselves too. It helps me to stay productive and working to improve at something. That’s important. Maybe someone else will look at my drawings and either feel inspired to learn something new or to enjoy just scribbling a pencil or marker around without worrying about what somebody else thinks. That would be good.
There will always be critics
One thing I’ve realized in my time on this Earth is that there will always be critics. There will also be people who feel better about themselves when they tear other people down. Just read some Youtube comments some day. No one is ever going to silence all of the critics or jerks. I’ve spent a lot of time in my life worrying about what the jerks think. There have been a lot of things I never tried because I was worried about what someone else would say. That’s a silly way to live a life. I’m just learning to draw and having fun with it. I would encourage you to do the same with drawing or anything else you have always wanted to give a try.